Mess of Dreams

So yesterday, I found my current boyfriend has not only been on the dating site he met me on within the last week, but he had changed his location on there to where he just moved to this weekend. This, of course, has posed many questions in my head about where he stands with us and what he isn't telling me. I trust him... but this makes me wonder if I should. So, after having a little bit of a meltdown yesterday and consulting the best friend, I decided to sleep on it and talk with him about it today.

This, of course, affected my sleep pattern last night, as well as impacted my dreams. I had a dream he was trying to wake me up for sex and I got up for the bathroom. When I came back, he rolled over and stopped trying. I then dreamed he asked me if he had done something wrong and I mumbled in my sleep "yes." He asked what and I mumbled " not now, we will talk about it in the morning."

Then I had the longer dream... the one where I actually talked to him about it. I don't quite remember the outcome, only that I had trouble getting my point across and he became angry. Funny... this may actually happen. I often stumble over my words with him and he ends up frustrated with me for hours upon days, depending on his mood and how much I talked after I frustrated him.

This post is in my dream journal, though after writing it, I seem to wonder if it needs to go into "Life Incoherent..." Hmmm... maybe a more elaborate version will make its way into that blog. Depending on outcome.