Restless

I tossed and turned all night long. Had several dreams, a couple about K. Bet you're wondering if all the dreams I post about are going to be about K. Answer is a definite NO. The only reason they all seem to be about K right now is because he seems to be what my subconscious likes to throw at me when I'm unconscious and it has control over me. I plan on posting whatever dreams I have and possibly my past dreams, as well. I have a knack for remembering a lot of them... especially the ones which really affect me or have come true in one aspect or another.

In any case, a couple of dreams about K last night. First, there was the one where he and I got together again. We were on the hotel room bed up in MV, where I stay for work, messing around. I wanted him to take me so bad, but he ignored my requests, just like he did earlier this month, when we first got together. He was on top of me, but refused to enter and climaxed on my torso. In the dream I slapped my hands down in frustration and in real life woke up to hearing myself mutter "what the hell? I'm so disappointed."

Ended up going right back to sleep, slipping back into a similar dream. We were sitting on the couch at the MV hotel, I asked where this was going. Dream K told me he wants to date and see where this goes. He then asked me to come to one of his shows and I told him I was not comfortable, but wanted to support him. Suddenly, I'm at the casino where we last saw them perform. The line is so long, it's out the front door. I walk up to the person letting people in as others leave and ask if she knows my name. She tells me K said to let me in and I was stumped. I walk into the lounge area and he approaches me and is very attentive.

Sure was the opposite end of the spectrum from the dream I had when I took my nap after Black Friday shopping. I think this last dream was inspired by the heart to heart I had with my best friend L yesterday over a glass of wine. She still doesn't trust K is genuine. She still thinks he's hanging around because this is once again easy for him and she has let me know her opinion is not going to change until she sees him interact with me outside the venue of his performances. I doubt this will happen anytime soon, if ever. I've invited him out with us a couple times, but both requests have been completely ignored. I'm okay with it, this is a bit too early for me to expect him to want to make an appearance among my friends. And if when I ask him where this is going (sometime in January), then I will probably be walking away if L was right and he does just see this as friends with benefits. Not that I expect an instant relationship, but to at least have the potential for it to go somewhere is a must. The dreams can be damned, I've dealt with them before. Used to dream about W all the time, back when we were seeing each other eight years ago. Then things got overly complicated and we had to go our separate ways. The frequency of the dreams tend to wear off with distance, before they just completely fade away into the mist of general indifference...